Dreams you have set

The dreams you have set,
far, far away…
The dreams you have set…
They could all come true today.

The dreams you have set,
They’re simply goals you have set, and these goals,
can be scored.
But like all goals, there is a goalie
and a defense.
And it is their job to make your desires harder to obtain.

This is a wall that you must break through.
And it is a mountain you must climb.
All the courage in the world is required to complete this task,
but all the rewards you could ever want,
lie just beyond your reach in the palms of your hands.

Clear your head,
Cast aside the depression, anger, angst, and guild.
It’s there behind all the fears, doubts, and setbacks.
It’s behind that which you cannot see.
It is behind you.

It is behind you 100%,
There is nothing you can do about them now,
But you can choose how you respond.
Respond by letting them all drive you to not sit idly by and let your dreams slip away?

No, these are the dreams you have set.
And they are the dreams that you can reach.

They are the dreams that require you to wake up,
In order to live them.

Dreams and fears

Well, I move in to college on the 19th. I’ve barely spoken with my roommates on Facebook and I only know one other person who’s going to be there (although I talked to him last in Middle School).

I’m quite excited, but I’m also overwhelmingly nervous. A month ago I thought I was all ready and that I’d be totally fine with moving in, but now, a week before I leave it’s all starting to catch up with me.

I’m worried that I’ll be too shy to meet new people and that I’ll spend all my time alone. I’m worried that I won’t get along with my roommate. I’m worried that I’ll do poorly in my classes. I’m worried I’ll feel as alienated as I did in High School.

I’m used to being alone, after all, I’ve been alone my entire life but I don’t want to be alone any longer.

One night, I stumbled across this image in some forum. Something about it just spoke to me, and I couldn’t look away.

From darkness to wonder

I don’t know who this is or where it came from, and when I tried to find out it only seemed to be some desktop wallpaper that’s been floating around for a while. Anyway, what struck me about this photo is that it’s almost anonymous in nature—simply a hooded woman in the dark looking out towards a light source.

In this image, I see so much more. I see someone in the dark and in the cold, looking for something that they may not find for a while. I see someone alone, much like myself, thinking about life and the universe. I see someone awake at 3 AM, reading something on a bright computer screen, tired but continuing. I see someone who shares the same thoughts and feelings. I see someone who I want to talk to and share my doubts and fears. I see someone I want to love. (not the person in the picture, of course, but the characteristics that I see in this picture).

But alas! This is just a hope, a mere fragment of my imagination, that may never be.